Monthly Archives: April 2018

10th April 2018

After you arrived, everything changed…

Dear Stanley – on the eve of your 6th birthday…

Before you arrived, life was different.

It was busy, but it was ordered.

It was simple, but it was full.

I lived for booking far-flung adventures, going on romantic dinner dates, and drinking really good cups of coffee at the weekend with a magazine in my hands.

I dreamt of career promotions, and white weddings, and one day, so distant in the future that it seemed hazy and surreal, of perhaps having babies of my own.

But back then, I wore clothes that I knew wouldn’t get covered in muck by grubby mitts and open-mouthed kisses within two minutes of getting dressed.

I wore shoes that I knew I could walk in – not having to consider suddenly breaking into a panicked run to chase you or carrying you for the entire walk as you point blank refused to sit in your buggy.

And I ate the food that I wanted to eat, not giving two hoots whether I was getting my five-a-day or drinking far too many glasses of cheap white wine as I rolled out of the office and into a bar with friends.

Before you arrived, life was different.

I was happy – and to be honest, I didn’t know that anything was missing.

But it turned out that it was.

Because one April afternoon, six years ago to the day tomorrow, you changed everything forever.

A little boy, like I’d always dreamt.

And as I stared into your deep blue eyes as you were placed on my chest, in that very instant, my life spun into a completely new course.

Life wasn’t so ordered anymore – but it was still busy.

Life wasn’t so simple anymore – but it was fuller than ever.

I still dreamt of far-flung adventures – but first, I needed to check there was travel cots, and high-chairs, and food on the menu that you’d actually eat.

I still lived for romantic dates – but they happened so rarely, I would delve into my handbag for a lipstick and discover spare dummies, and odd socks, and tiny toy cars instead.

I still adored cups of good coffee, but it wasn’t just for the taste anymore. It was for the caffeine – and the stronger, the better.

I had changed.

I still considered myself strong – but I was softer round the edges. My eyes welled up at emotional songs and films – and I full-on lost control of those tears the first time I saw you perform in a nursery show.

And as hard as it was to even imagine a life without you in it again, the thought occasionally crossed my mind and paralysed me for a moment – so terrified of losing you that I couldn’t function, or speak, or move until I forced it out of my mind again.

After you arrived, I was painfully aware of my flaws. My lack of patience, my vulnerabilities, and my inability to remain strong in the path of a stubborn toddler with pleading eyes.

But I realised my strengths too. Not only physically (because who can truly feel weak when they have grown and birthed a small human), but emotionally. To get through those hard weeks at the beginning, to learn to become a mother away from nearly everyone I knew and loved, and to get to the end of one of the hardest days and realise that we had survived.

After you arrived, everything changed.

Everything.

And six years on, I find it hard to remember what life was like without you in it

You were my first baby.

The little boy that made me a mother.

You changed me, challenged me, softened me, strengthened me, and taught me to love in a way I didn’t even know was possible.

And as you celebrate tomorrow, with those same deep blue eyes sparkling with excitement and happiness, I will take myself back to our first moments together.

Quietly remembering the first time that we met.

When everything changed.

Everything.

And I will smile.

Love from Mummy x



7th April 2018

Currently Loving – April 2018

I meant to write this blog post in March – but then the snow happened and the kids were off school for a week (i never thought I’d be angry with the snow, but I really was by the end of that week). And then before I knew it, the Easter holidays had crept up on us – and alas, there hasn’t been much blog writing going on with three kids running around the house.

But here we are. I have finally managed to pull it together, thanks to a combination of coffee, pleading with the husband, and ear plugs – and I hope you enjoy what I’ve pulled together.

1. Boden T-Shirt. Boden’s new season collection is in – and top of my picks is this ice cream tee. You’ll find it in the boy’s section, but I think it’s equally lovely for girls. Shop here.

2. L’Occitane Immortelle Divine Cream. I’ve started using this moisturising cream again, after years without it – and my skin is delighted. It leaves my skin looking all dewy and feeling well hydrated, even after the most disturbed nights with the kids. Shop here

3. Mrs Beasley’s Bows. I’m so desperate for Mabel to keep this beautiful Liberty-print bow in her hair, but alas, she’s having none of it. If your little one is more keen on the bow wearing, I can confirm that it is exceedingly beautiful, very well-made, and has a price tag of just £3.50. Shop here.

4. La Redoute Swim Suits. What’s that, you say? Swim shorts covered in tiny dinosaurs? That’s right – and they are just £12 from La Redoute. Shop here.

5. Lift the Flap Books. These brilliant books are perfect for busy little minds. I’ve bought three of them for Stanley’s birthday, including this one about the World. I know he’s going to love them – and he’s just turning six (thanks to Jo at Scamp & Dude for the recommendation!). Shop here.

6. Essie Nail Polish. The Spring 2018 collection by Essie is making me swoon – and my favourite is the chic Anchor Down. I’m buying myself a bottle and will be wearing it all season. Shop here.

7. Bloom & Blossom Bath, Book and Bedtime Collection. Oh how I love this new range of bathtime products for kids from Bloom & Blossom. I used this brand throughout my three pregnancies and rate the beautiful, safe ingredients and stunning scents – and this range for kids definitely hasn’t disappointed, with wonderful packaging, affordable price tags, child-friendly ingredients, and seriously affordable prices. Shop here.

8. Stories For Boys Who Dare To Be Different. This is a truly wonderful new book that you should purchase for your boys immediately. Each double page spread tells the story of a different boy who dared to be different – from Oscar Wilde, to Ralph Lauren, to Vincent Van Gogh, to Grayson Perry. And the illustrations are beautiful. Shop here.

9. Boden Frilled Swimsuit. I may well have added this to Mabel’s summer stash. Well, OK I did. Because it was impossible to resist. Shop here.

10. Grass & Air Rain Mac. It’s that time of year when we don’t need coats, but it’s still highly likely to rain – and that’s why I’ve swapped from Mabel’s thick winter coat to this beauty by Grass & Air. It’s stunning on her, totally waterproof, and when a bright light shines on the fabric, rain clouds appear. Shop here.

11. Saltwater Sandals. I don’t have these Rose Gold Saltwater Sandals yet, but I am seriously coveting them. I mean, what’s not to like?! They come in kids’ sizes (from 5 to 13) and adult sizes (from 3 to 8). Shop kids here. Shop adults here.

12. Zara Kids Cap. I love this denim cap by Zara Kids, which nods to dinosaurs in a really fun, stylish way. It works well for boys and girls – and costs just £6.99. Shop here.

13. T-RQ Adult Gummies. I’ve come to the end of my six-month trial of T-RQ Adult Gummies – and they’ve now become such a regular part of my morning routine that I have already re-stocked and will be doing so again soon. From the multi-vitamins (which contain nine essential vitamins), to the Biotin (which supports hair, skin and nails), to the Omega 3 with DHA + EPA (which helps power healthy brain, vision, and heart functioning), the entire range contains high quality ingredients and come in natural, great tasting flavours. Gummy vitamins aren’t just for kids, after all! Shop here.

 

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